It’s just been one of those Decembers.

I was supposed to have a book out already. And it was out. For about 3 minutes. I took it down and have been revising it. Again. I was unhappy with it. It was awful. No matter what I did, I couldn’t figure out how to fix it, how to make it better, so rather than leave it up, I unpublished it and have been revising and rewriting it. It’ll be out before Christmas…

This is a part of writing that’s frustrating. Some stories flow with seemingly zero effort. Other stories are a struggle from the word Go. It’s not that the idea wasn’t there. It was that I couldn’t figure out the right execution. I couldn’t figure out how much or how little to add or leave out. And it’s not that it needed additional thinking time because I’ve been thinking about it for almost 2 years.

Was I overthinking it? Probably. I do that with every story, with every book. And honestly, I am so ready to get it out of my head and off my desk. Sometimes, I think I’m not meant to write holiday stories, that I’m not meant to write Christmas stories… That thought makes me sad. I want to write them. I want to have fun with them. I want to write the holiday stories I can’t seem to find anywhere. This one, though… This one isn’t it.

I’ve been struggling with focus. I’ve been struggling with depression, some sadness…

I’ve also been struggling with anticipation of books that are coming up, things I can’t wait to get back to writing, things I can’t wait to start writing, and things I can’t wait to also get off my desk and out of my head. So many books have been jamming up traffic in my brain for years and I want them out, I want to tell those stories for Lissa Matthews, for Ella Claire, and for a secret pen name I have only told a handful of people about. The anticipation of getting to some of these stories and series is kind of killing my ability to focus on what’s immediately in front of me.

So, that’s kind of where I am right now. I’ve spent the last 6 days since my last post publishing, unpublishing, revising, and rewriting the following book…

Hopefully, if you’re one of the few who purchased this title in the 3 minutes it was available before I unpublished it, you returned it… And if you didn’t, hopefully you’ve got the option on your Kindle turned on that will get you the updated version when I re-publish it.

Here’s wishing you a nice weekend before Christmas…

Lissa

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